first thanksgiving

this is the day i decided to start this blog. i've been thinking about it but haven't until now. i don't really expect anyone to read it... i guess it's just for my own peace of mind.

this is the first thanksgiving without my dad.

last year, at this exact moment we were watching football together. now i'm sitting here wearing his shirt, watching the game alone and wishing it were the same.

my birthday just passed too. i still have his phone number saved in my phone and every time the phone rang i wanted so badly to see the caller id "daddy". it never happened, of course. childish.

i've been so emotional lately. i can't stop thinking about all the things my dad is going to miss. first my 19th birthday, now thanksgiving, next is christmas... new years. my wedding, my first child. they're just going to keep coming and i'm still not going to have my dad.

i miss you daddy. we'll be together again one day.